Tuesday, August 7, 2012

From Anonymous, to Anonymous

Names have been replaced with "anonymous."

"Good morning.

It's Sunday the 18th and I was just sitting around drinking coffee. Almost made it to early church this morning but chickened out AGAIN. I'll call anonymous this week to see if I can hook up with them next Sunday and work back into it slowly I suppose. The house is empty without you in it good or bad, and I wanted you to know that in spite of my attempts at moving on, I know I'll never really be able to. I wonder if anyone really does? Maybe if there is a genuine hatred or outright animosity that would make it easier-such is not the case with us. I miss you every day no matter what I do. Some days are much better than others. They say that time heals all and 'just give it time.' I think all that time does is allow you to build scar tissue so you become more numb. I don't want to be numb. I want tinker bell to wave her magic wand and shower us with everything that would make all the fragments of our lives fall together like one of the puzzles anonymous puts together. Maybe they will, but jigsaws take a long time to finish. I'm not looking for sympathy. I just wanted you to know that I meant what I said when I told you that you have a piece of my heart that no one else will ever hold like you do. It's a big piece. Why we couldn't just fall together is a mystery to me- but I know it's me and not you. I think about you often, and have many regrets. I feel that there will never be a real closure, and maybe that's a good thing because I don't think that closure is what I'm looking for at this point.

Just needed to say this- adios."

I feel like I read this out of a book. This was an email written by someone very close to me; it makes me wish that I was their tinker bell.

Wednesday, August 1, 2012

“I believe in morality, which is doing right regardless of what I’m told, not religion, which is doing what I am told regardless of what is right.”

Honestly, I think everyone is entitled to their own opinions. And since the whole "keep your opinions to yourself" motto has never really worked, I figured I'd add to the ongoing debate.

There has been a lot of hype VERY recently about Chic-Fil-A and their support against same-sex marriage. What a lot of people don't realize is that they've been against same-sex marriage for a long time. People are just now starting to take notice.

I am going to do my best to keep religion (Christianity) out of this, because quite frankly I don't know enough about it or the Bible to have a solid argument. Plus, I don't care to discuss a book that has so many different interpretations to those who are close-minded.

I will say one thing though. There are so many Christian gays out there, and for them to be shunned by the majority of churches and "super" (aka Nazi) Christians because of their sexuality is disgusting.

My main point here is, who would willingly choose to be gay?

Think about it. Who would choose to go out of their way and force themselves to like the same sex just so they could be criticized for it later on? I can't explain WHY I am attracted to males, I just am. There is something physical that causes me to gravitate towards them, a force I can't explain. Homosexuality isn't a disease, it's a sexual orientation (and honestly, in my opinion, I'm beginning to think it's hereditary, but that's a topic for later on). Just like I can't explain WHY I am attracted to the opposite sex, I assume it is the same thing for people who are attracted to the same sex.

If my (future) husband is in the hospital, if I want to see him I am allowed because I am family. Gays do not have this privilege due to the fact that they cannot get married, and in an emergency situation, only family members are permitted to visit. If I was gay and in a relationship with my partner for longer than the average marriage lasts (because let's be honest, not very many do) I should have the right to see her.

I define myself loosely as the term "Christian" simply because I do believe in God for my own personal experiences and reasons, but I do not think that if God one day showed Himself to us that he would say "I created you, but no, you can't have the same rights as others because I must have messed you up somewhere along the way."

If Chic-Fil-A wants to support anti-same-sex marriage, they are entitled to that. Just like I am entitled to support an organization that is pro-same-sex marriage.